New Feature and Why I am not posting as much as I should.

Hola!

So, as promised I will talk about what the heck a capstone is, why I am doing it, and what mine is about.  But first, I have some very exiting news.

One of my friends from the church I attend while at college is a phenomenal artist.  His medium is photography and he has some excellent pictures that he has allowed me to post on here for you.  So, every week, in addition to my Song of the Week, I will be posting a Picture of the Week from my friend Rob Castro.  If you like his work and want to check out more of it, he has a blog filled his photos that you can access Here. He has some really good photos and seeing them everyday makes me appreciative for people like him that can do such amazing art.

His first work that I will display is "Candy Orange Kind of Love"  I love the hues and the softness of this photo.  I am into the meaning of the color and meaning of certain types of flowers, and this photo brings that right out.  This Orange Rose is a symbol of passion, enthusiasm, and desire.  The Rose signifies a special relationship between the giver and the recipient.  As such, this photo is a great piece of work capturing the soft desire of a particular person.  Of course, this is my interpretation, and I'm sure Rob has another, but you should really go check out his other work. Just click on the link above.

Now, onto what a capstone is, and the rest of the story.  I am a senior in college, and at my particular school, they have what is called a capstone project.  You are to write a paper on a topic of your choosing, using all of the skills you have gained while at school.  This paper for me is 25-30 pages of work.  My topic that I have decided on is a Practically-alligorical interpretation of the Song of Songs.  Now the Song of Songs gets a bad rap because many people view it as "the sex book"  and "how God wants your marriage to be."  But that is not how the book should be taken, It does have implications for our lives, but it is a picture of how God relates to His people.    This will be one of the toughest challenges I have taken on yet.  I will let you know how it comes out in 2 weeks.  But yes, this is has my mind on love and relationships.  And so, with a plethora of songs on this topic, Here is the Song of The Week!

Here is a song that is sung by a powerful voice.  Yes, I am sorry. I like this song from Adele.  It is her single "I Set Fire to the Rain."  This song gives a powerful picture of manipulation in a relationship, and how it fights against the draw of attraction.  I will discuss this later when I have time, so check back after this week when my capstone is done.

The Misery of Dreams

Howdy all!

I'm back again.  It has again been one of those days.  I'm feeling lonely, but that is not what I am here to talk about.  What I am here to talk about is dreams.  Yes, you heard me right dreams.  Not "What does your future hold" kind of stuff.  More like "what is floating in your head at night" kind of stuff. 

Last night was a doozy for me.  My dreams took me back about a year ago.  I could see people's faces, hear their voices.  It was like watching a movie.  I wasn't in control of anything.  I tried to change what I said, but it didn't work, I still remember that the words in my dream were the same that they were a year ago.  For a guy that can't remember his right foot from his left some times, that is stinkin' impressive.  But, without warning, something changed.  In fact everything did.  The person that I was speaking to was different, the words were unfamiliar to me, and the scenery totally changed. I didn't understand what was going on, to a certain extent I still don't.  

Anyway, on to the music.  Again with my wonderful capstone, which I promise My next post will include something on; my mind has been wondering on the topic of love and relationships.  Especially those one that we think..."What was s/he thinking?"  As such, this leads me to my two songs: "Misery" by Maroon 5 and a cover of "Wonderwall" by Straight No Chaser

Enjoy
TI

Happy Hectic New Year!

Hi everyone,

Life has been busy lately.  Let me catch you up on all of the fun that is currently happening in my life.  And of course, a song or two. :)

So, I have been ridiculously tardy on this blogging thing.  But I must confess, it is for a good reason, namely, school.  I am a senior in college.  At my college, that means you have to write a capstone paper.  This paper is 25-30 pages of in depth work.  Being a theology major, this means I have to pick a topic from the Bible and write on it.  My topic: Intimacy.  I am using the Song of Songs (one of the most controversial books of the Bible) and a little known theologian named Bernard of Clairvaux to support my point that God wants to have a close, personal relationship with us, and that should lead us to desire a close, personal relationship with both Him and the people around us.  Basically, show love to the world.  I have to walk very fine lines in this work and the stress is taking its toll on me in more ways than I can think of right now.

Talking about relationships sucks when you don't have one.  And, well... i don't have one.  Because of this I am starting to question things. Close things, personal things.  Like, am I good enough to be with anyone?  Am I adequate to even be in a relationship?  I keep hearing the cliche phrases of "Well, you just haven't found the right one yet." or "God has someone for you.  You just need to be patient."  As comforting as that might sound, it is infuriating to hear.  I want to be patient, but at the same time I don't want to be.  Many times I have found myself crying for no other reason than the fact that I am so confused in my own life and in where I am going that I can only cry to relieve the stress that I am under.  Many of my prayers lately have been filled with tears, and I feel like I am not getting answers, but more questions.  My biggest question lately is why?  Particularly, "Why do I feel this way?"  I am tired, both mentally and emotionally.  I cannot take another emotional beating.  That is why i have not let my emotions out in front of anyone in the past couple of months.  My creativity stopped flowing because I wanted to suppress my feelings.  I cannot bear to put myself out in front of a person that I love and get beat down repeatedly. 

But, I promised I would not put that out on here, so I will spare my emotional overflow for a more appropriate outlet.  In short, sadly, this  means I am lonely. And I am trying to decide which pain is better right now, loneliness, or alienation.

But anyway, I guess I need to figure that out and give it time. At least what little of it I have left.  So, without further ado, Here are my songs for the post.

These songs have been stuck in my head for the last few weeks, and they are kind of the expression of what I am going through right now.  I hope you enjoy.  Here is Gavin DeGraw's "I'm Not Over You" and Colbie Caillat's "I Never Told You"

Update and Instant Favorites

Hi everyone.

I am so very sorry for not posting.  I have been rather busy with end of the semester papers and exams.  Just a quick update and then some new songs for the thinking.

I have been very busy trying to work on setting everything up for my last semester at college.  I have using my time on break to do some studying and to set up for a decent draft of the 25 page capstone paper that I have to write.  I am now in bed writing this due to the illness I have.  I am trying to get rest, as I had a head cold that developed into acute walking pneumonia and I am wont to finally be done with feeling sick.  I am struggling to find words to complete this as both the medication and the illness that it is for is clouding my mind.  Well, not that you know what is happening with me...TO THE MUSIC!! :)

These selections are some of my latest favorites. The first is from the group Straight No Chaser.  They have done an amazing remix of Rhythm of Love and I Can't Help Falling in Love With You.  This song became one of my favorites the first time I listened to it.  With minimal accompaniment, the sounds of the harmonies come though and give a great sense of the rhythm that makes you want to tap your foot and dance around the room.

Sorry for the lack of a visual, but the song is what should be featured. :)

Next up is a song that was another one of my instant favorites. Jeff Buckley did a cover of a song by Leonard Cohen called "Hallelujah."  This song is played well enough to feel the emotion behind it.  The pain and desire behind it makes your heart unite with his, sobbing that lost the "broken Hallelujah."  While I do not fully agree with his interpretation, I agree that many of us today have lost this fundamental cry of our hearts.  The meaning of the song is clear enough, and it is that which I want to convey.  May our hearts all scream as one, "HALLELUJAH!"

TI

Song of the Week: "Crush" by David Archuleta

Hello and Happy Thanksgiving to all my friends out there!

I am on Thanksgiving break which means I have some more time to put a song or two on the blog.

This week's installment is a song by an American Idol hopeful, David Archuleta. In season 7 he finished as runner up.  This song climbed as high as number 2 on the charts and has sold almost a million copies of his self titled, debut album.  I have had this song on a playlist for some time now and it keeps getting stuck in my head.  Yes, I am still on my (slightly depressed) bent.  I have heard some not so good news about my great-grandma, so that just compounds on my already mental and emotional stress.  But Thanksgiving football always helps that, which it did on Wednesday night.  However, those who know me, know that I do push too hard sometimes and I did it again.  So I am a little banged up, but it is definitely worth the pain for the next couple of days.

Anywho, I have had a particular someone on my mind over the past couple of weeks and I wish I could talk to her about it, but she keeps giving me mixed signals and I am about as daft as it comes to relationships.  So, with that in mind I thought this song is slightly appropriate.

These types of songs infuriate me because of their rose colored look at love.  REAL LIFE DOES NOT WORK THIS WAY!!!!!  I am truly sick of song like this that give an unrealistic picture of love.  Love is hard work.  As I have said in a earlier post, love is a commitment followed by actions that are conducive to the support of that decision.  When a person wants out, they make a conscious decision that the other person, and their relationship with them is not worth the time and effort put into them.  Sorry, rant over.  

On the other hand, I am a hopeless romantic and wish life worked this way. (Yes, I truly am a paradox.) I love the whole love story thing. (Think Taylor Swift's "Love Story.")  Ya, I read Shakespeare, I wish it worked that way, and I am proud of it.  But my realistic side is eating me up right now.   Well, I have babbled enough.  Here is "Crush" by David Archuleta.

Song of the Week: "Let it Rain" by David Nail

Hi everyone,

Sorry for being so long between posts.  I have been very busy with school, work, and all the other stuff I do around here.  This week's song is David Nail's "Let it Rain."

This song is an amazing confession of a man who cheats on his wife and realizes his sin.  He not only feels guilty, but confesses to his wife and shows willingness to accept any punishment given to him.  He is heartbroken to the point where he confesses, "Let it hurt, even more than I deserve."  He realizes the love he had, and the trifle he replaced it with.

I do not condone his action, but I can say that this song is a genuine refection of humanity.  We live in a fallen world and it is not an easy thing to live with.  I have felt this pain before.  Not to the same extent. (I am not married, currently have no girlfriend, and have never cheated on anyone.) But, I know what it is like to tell the person you love that you screwed up.  You put yourself at their mercy and pray that they forgive you.  I have seen both the good and the bad that can come from this type of confession. (I wish I had seen more of the good than the bad.)  This is why I must emphasize forgiveness as much as I can.  (Theologian coming out)  Christ has shown us forgiveness, why must we not do the same?  Do we have an excuse?  No.  (Look at the book of Hosea if you want a deeper picture.)   This betrayal is at the heart of our corruption as human beings.  His forgiveness should lead to our forgiveness.  Here is David Nail's "Let it Rain."

WARNING:  The images are slightly suggestive and should not be viewed by anyone who can't deal with the sexual nature of this song.

Some people have asked why I pick the songs I do.

To tell the truth, It really depends on my mood, and if I think the song is catchy.  This song comes from my current time of sickness, and heartbroken-ness. No, I did not break up with anyone.  No, I am not in a relationship.  I am, however, feeling lonely and would like to ask a woman out, but I know that she has no intention of being attracted to me.  (It's complicated)  There are other reasons, but these are the major ones that have lead me to listen to sappy love songs and the sorrowful hope of unrequited love.

Promising to post next week after my trip to San Francisco,

TI

Song of the Week? Month?...Whatever :P - Straight No Chaser

Hi to everyone in the interwebs!  lol

Just Kidding, I'm not that crazy, yet.  However, by the end of these next two weeks I may just be.  I have 4 papers, a fundraising trip to the middle of California, and an entire week of play practice capping off with 2 performances at the end of next week.

Yep, busy as ever.  So, I thought I would give you some more music for you listening pleasure:  Straight No Chaser!

I love these guys!  They are an a capella  singing group from Indiana.  They met in college and now sing professionally.  They sing in 5 to 10 part harmony.  They have amazing voices and do some great covers of songs.  So, without further ado: Straight No Chaser!  (Here is a mix of what they have been doing including their title song, and their latest work "Like a Prayer")

With eyes like lead and a lot of reading to do,
TI